Where did June go??

Is it just me or does time seem to be speeding up? I swear it was just May last week. I find that I get myself caught up to turn around and get behind. I live by today lists and calendars, whether it's on my phone, my Louis Vuitton agenda, or various slips of paper or post it notes that I find around the house or in my purse. So that leads me to ask a question-Is living by a to do list making me miss out on living? Is that why it seems like time is moving so much faster because I am not enjoying it?

Let's face it I have to work. I don't have the luxury of being a millionaire who can vacation wherever and enjoy life. My days I have off are spent doing things around the house or getting caught up with my volunteer work. My mind never switches off. This is probably why I feel like time is rolling past me. I wish that we didn't live in such an expensive time, where we could actually take the time to smell the roses instead of saying in a minute, an hour, a week.....

In the words of David Wooderson from the movie Dazed and Confused "The older you get, the more rules they are going to try and get you to follow. You just gotta keep on livin', man. L-I-V-I-N." I guess I need to get out there and try this.

Stress

I worry. It's my natural instinct to worry about everything and anything in my life. If I am not worrying, then I am not living. I worry over every little thing. Yes, I know that worrying is pointless, but sometimes it makes me feel better, like I may have a little control over things. I also feel like I have to worry some for my husband because he has the most laid back attitude, and stuff just rolls off of him. It infuriates me that he can have such a cavalier attitude. I can sit and rant and rave over things and he just shrugs his shoulders and goes on. I have found that most men are like this. Just once I wish that I could have the peace and tranquility for one day that my husband has all the time. Then just maybe I could get 8 hours of restful sleep.
I am sure that I am slowly putting myself into an early grave. Okay time to try the deep breaths and see if that will work.